Week Twelve- Tuesday

So things went really well yesterday, too, with one exception.

For breakfast, I did my 2/3 c oatmeal, 1/4 cup raisins, 1 oz. almonds with nutmeg and cinnamon breakfast again.

For morning snack, I had 1 piece of string cheese and half an oz. of almonds

For lunch, I had chili again with 4 saltines.

For afternoon snack, I had 2 pieces of string cheese and an orange.

I had a dentist appointment at 4 to take off my temporary crown and put on the permanent one.  It should have taken 20 minutes.  I didn't get out until an hour and a half later.  Something was strange with the crown and it wouldn't lock into place.  It kept rocking.  The dentist decided to work a little on the base it was sitting on and that's when the fireworks went off in my mouth.  So about 86 shots later, the tooth was still being touchy, I was frustrated with being a bother, and emotional from the stress it brings back to me (4th grade- eyes closed on a trampoline- fell off- broke front tooth in half- root canal that they couldn't deaden all the way= fear of dental work that I'm trying really hard to overcome).

When I left, I was upset and, to paraphrase Lilo and Stitch, "I'm troubled.  I need desserts!"  Food is how I deal with stressful situations.  If I were a smoker, I would have smoked.  If I were a drinker, I would have had a drink.  Since I'm Mormon and don't do either- I wanted to eat.  I wanted to keep my goal of no candy and no chips.  So... oh, man, do I type this?  So I got a loaf of Italian bread and ate 2/3 of it on the drive home.  I also got dessert for dinner- 4 nanaimo bars, so we each could have 2 but then be done and not have a cake or a pie sitting around in the house.

This experience has made me realize that I've taken away my coping mechanism.  When hurt or sad and want to feel better, I eat.  I am going to need to find something to replace it with.

For dinner, we had the crockpot taco soup which was delicious.  I finished the loaf of Italian bread, and had the 2 nanaimo bars.

Activity-wise, you could tell it was a post-program video recovery day for me and my younger grades, because my grand total of steps was 5,784.  I don't remember when they've been that low.  I didn't work out or walk Pip.  Just didn't have time.  I have my workout clothes packed and ready to go so I can stop off on my way home today.  Crockpot dinner ready to go.  Lunch and breakfast and snacks in hand.  Bring on Wednesday.