This isn't my final check in for the end of the day, but I wanted to record my sensations today because it's been wonderful. Today is one of those days that I feel lighter- lighter as I walk, lighter as I move. My knee is mending. I can bend it farther and walk on it better than I've been able to do all week. My clothes feel looser- now I don't know if it's because I'm wearing shorts I wore yesterday again and they're already stretched out, or if my body is changing. My arms feel smaller and stronger My middle feels slimmer. Today the stress level is much less than it has been and my desire today to stay on track and eat healthier has outweighed the habit of just grazing throughout the day. Last weekend I really blew it on Saturday and Sunday. I am going to do the absolute best I can to do better this weekend.
This morning I had oatmeal with raisins and almonds. I snacked on almonds again around 11:30. For lunch, Paul and I made little homemade pizzas on wheat thin bagels with sauce, cheese, mushrooms, and a couple slices of canadian bacon. For a snack, I did have a bag of light kettle corn because I was hungry for volume, but when I was done, I wasn't as full as I thought I'd be. I had a piece of string cheese with it and it totally helped.
This evening I planned out lunches and meals for the next few days. Paul, being the awesome man that he is, is out getting the groceries now. Crockpot meals planned for Sunday, Monday, Tuesday. Leftovers probably Wednesday. :o)
I just also had to add how grateful I am for the help I have been given by so many around me. A friend of mine from high school inspired me with his workout journey and his positive Facebook posts. Because of my visiting teachers, I've switched to a new bread that I love and have found new thin wheat bagels that are great. They have listened and counseled me and been so kind. Because of a friend at work, I have new light cookbooks to use. Another friend showed me a great site about freezer crockpot meals to make ahead of time. My acupuncturist has given me amazing, steady advice time and time again that has been right for me and filled with balance. She has recognized my progress even when I haven't. My coaches at Curves have been wonderful. The one I'm working with now encouraged me to go public with my journey, and that has made all the difference in achieving my goals. I'm following through now. My former health coach continues to be supportive and cheer me on. A colleague from school brought me her favorite "in a pinch" snacks/safe guards and has been nothing short of wonderful to me on my journey because she's been there, too. Another dear friend has made numerous comments to me about my successes and continues to stay in touch almost daily as I learn and change. My husband has been understanding, loving, and my champion as I continue to try every time I fall down. These are just a tiny sampling of the network of amazing people I have around me. I feel the timing is right and that I can't possibly fail with such friends lifting me up. I know that it still comes down to me, but I am incredibly grateful for the help I've been given.
Paul and I have been watching "The Office" in the evenings and last night we watched the final episode. In it, Pam describes what she hopes others will get from watching her story. She wants someone to watch and say to herself, "Be strong. Trust Yourself. Love Yourself. Conquer your fears. Just go after what you want and act fast because life just isn't that long." I think I'm ready to follow her example.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drB-pxScTQA
I've said it before-there's a reason they call it a journey. It's beautiful, and frustrating, and maddening, and amazing getting to know yourself in a whole new way. The process is sometimes exhausting, and sometimes exhilarating. Your blog will allow you to go back and celebrate when you're feeling low. I think you're different than others because you are happy with progress instead of perfection, which means you will succeed!!!
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