Resetting and restarting

I'm going to blog now before I get too tired to process things.

I think I have hit a bit of a wall.   I always do this about this far into good changes in my health.  I don't understand why it takes so long to make a good habit, but takes such a short time to break it.  My eating has been going... ok.  As usual, late afternoons and evenings are my struggle.  I think it's because my days are so jam-packed that if anything out of the ordinary comes up, I never catch up and don't eat until I'm famished, and then I'm grumpy and eat whatever I want.  I do have to recognize my small victories.  Incredibly hungry yesterday, I made it out of the grocery store with only one treat- a bag of dried apricots, which I ate for a snack last night.  For dinner, I stopped at one of our favorite places and picked up a chicken salad instead of the chicken quesadilla that I wanted.  Today I ended up at another store at 4ish- trouble time again.  This time, I didn't make it out totally unscathed.  This may sound strange, but I'm going to count it as a win.  I grabbed a box of Crunch and Munch- that stuff I can down in one evening.  While waiting at the checkout, candy bars were calling to me.  I did some calculating.  The box of popcorn/peanuts was over 1,000 calories, but the candy bar I wanted was 450.  (I know, I know- it's still a lot).  So I switched the box for the candy bar and ate it with less guilt.

Paul was home this afternoon and evening, and where he is, I want to be, so we just chilled and watched some tv together.  We'd waited too many days to cook the steak I had planned for dinner, so he ended up with cold chicken, and I had chips and peanut butter sandwiches.  Sigh.  By the time 6 o'clock rolled around, I still hadn't worked out.  I mentioned it to Paul, and he kindly pointed out that it wasn't too late.  That was the help I needed.  I jumped into my workout clothes, he dropped me off at the gym on his way to his rehearsal, and I WORKED OUT.  I did core toning in between my machines, and I am feeling it now.  I finished about 3 minutes before they closed and then walked home.

I came home too tired to take Pip for his walk, but I'll do that tomorrow morning before I go in.

Tomorrow, I have a chicken meal ready for the crockpot, and am determined to keep going.  My steps have been strong- yesterday, they were 14,669, and today they're at 14,037.